I am a bridge

I am a bridge from one part of my life to another. Sometimes I can see the structures (events, happenings) that connect one part to another. Often I can see the beginning, but the end and the security of land remains out of view  – like crossing the Firth of Forth in a sea mist – I keep going, certain that my feet are placed on a solid structure, one in front of the other. Eventually I will reach the other side and arrive where I arrive.

Sometimes when crossing other bridges I find myself stepping off into a new land and my recollection of the journey across the bridge is unclear. But here I am. Present in new circumstances.

I now know that I can remain aware and present on my journey across the bridge. It is but a trick, a paying attention; to each footstep, to the view ahead and the view I am passing. It only requires a simple paying attention, but I get distracted by thoughts of how it will be when I arrive. If I arrive.

I am crossing a bridge now. From full time employment to freelance self employment. I am not certain where I will arrive, but I am travelling. I occasionally think, “What is the worst that could happen?” It’s probably that I can’t secure enough income to live and then can’t get back into employment. I know the fear is out there,  but I really believe that the land I arrive in will not be like that.

I will arrive on the other side of the bridge and there will be opportunities that I cannot now conceive of. My intention is strong. My belief that my journey across the bridge will arrive in a place that supports, sustains and enriches my life is complete. I just need to keep placing one foot in front of the other and pay attention to where I am and where I am headed.